Just earlier at school, I was answering something in my math book. I was disturbed by my classmate who was in front of me. He was asking me who my crush was. I told him I didn't want to talk about it because right now, I have no life anymore. He started guessing, and he guessed my ex-crush(the one who knew). I told him to stay quiet because someone would hear, especially the ex-crush who is seated 3 seats away from us. It comes out to show he, my ex-crush, heard his name and gave his attention to us. I don't blame him for doing so because like every normal person in this world, we would try to eavesdrop on a conversation about yourself or give your full attention to the conversation that had your name in it. Of course, my 'friend' didn't listen so when I tried explaining how it all happened, he was all like, "really?!?! I guessed it right!!!" On the outside, it looks like I didn't mind at all that it was normal. On the inside, I was a train wreck. I wanted to beat him up and throw my chair at him. He started blabbering more, and it looks like there is nothing that would stop him, and I was already annoyed, so I kicked his chair. At first, he didn't know why I was doing that. After a whole lot of kicking, he understood me and said to me and my ex-crush, "Sorry. Imagine this conversation never happened" then faced to the screen. That was a stupid move. I just want to rip his head off and smash it to pieces, but I can't because I'm not violent and crazy to do that. It was better off if he just kept quiet. If he did, none of this would have happened.
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Sunday, July 6, 2014
Entry 5- Just Please Don't take it out on me
Dear Journal,
I don't know what has gotten into my sister. Yesterday, she was all happy-go-lucky and like she didn't give a f*** about anything at all. Now, she was all cranky and upset about everything from the smallest little coincidences to the big mistakes. She has the worst mood swings; you'll never know when she'll have one. Just 10 minutes ago, I was asking her to type in her password, so I can use the laptop. I was waiting for her. She was mad at me for disturbing her already. She was all like "WHAT DO YOU POSSIBLY WANT NOW?!" I told her what I needed, and she obviously didn't want to do it. I gave up waiting for her and tried to guess the password using her old passwords. My first guess was right, and that made her furious. 5 minutes later, she was calling me. I went to her and she was giving me this sticker with a smile. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?! Earlier, you were mad, and now, you're freakin' happy?! Has the world gone this mad?! It's that or I'm going insane. Great... Something else to worry about.
Friday, July 4, 2014
Entry 4- face reality
Dear journal,
I am really frustrated, right now. I really can't believe that I am being treated this way. Why is it that nobody notices what I try to give. I give ideas, jokes, I even talk about what happened in school for crying out loud. I want to have that sibling bonding time with my sister, and she chooses her cellphone over me. A CELLPHONE?! She forgot what she was about to say, and blames me for everything. She wouldn't even talk to me anymore. What kind of sister does that?! I know older sisters could be demanding, bossy, arrogant, and ignorant, but not this much. Now, let me tell you a story. I was grouped with my best friend and another group of friends. We were supposed to do this task, and I already proposed the best plan I've proposed for that subject. I was the first and my best friend approves with me. After 3 days, the group members decided to talk about it. One of my group mates even made a new plan. It was good, but let's say the pacing is too slow. It would make the class fall to sleep. That's not all. My other group mate decided to take the lead and make another one. She read all of the proposals, with mine too. By what she said next, I say she didn't bother reading my proposal. She complimented on the ones she liked, like what she made and the other one. When another group mate mentioned something about mine, she was all like, "yeah... that one was awesome, too." I could just hear the fake 'I like it' tone all over it. That hurt. She then proceeded to make the whole proposal and decided to put all of them together. It looked horrible. If I owned a company and she dared passed that to me, I would have threw it in the trash can the moment I started reading it. I can't present that in front of the class. I could just imagine it now. Everyone giving disapproving looks and confused faces with the 'what the heck' face. If I did present that, I couldn't look at myself the same way again. I wouldn't even dare look at myself in the mirror. She thinks she knew everything, but she doesn't. She has to see that what she is doing is a bit... no, not a bit, but a lot terrible than it looks. I hope she would see that by Monday. I don't mean to hurt her feelings, but she just has to face reality.
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