Sunday, July 19, 2015

NO INTENSIVE CLASS MY ASS

Dear Jubs,
               Remember when you said where there isn't an intensive class this year in the Grade 11 batch? You fucking lied. Sorry for the rude language, but I think my rage/rant would not be complete without it. There are 3 sections- ABM, STEM AP, and STEM ICT. You said STEM AP is Science, Technology, Engineering and Mathematics Advanced Placement. From "Advanced Placement", you can already tell that that's the intensive class. Next, there are requirements to get in that class. What is that supposed to mean? "You have to get a grade higher than 88 in Science and Math to get in." while in STEM ICT, you just freely get in with no serious or specific grade requirements. What the actual hell guys? Are you fucking with me? Can this get any worse? Yes, it will, but on a different aspect. You never considered what job we want to take when we get out of college. What if I wanted to be a doctor and you placed me in STEM ICT which is the class for people who would take computer stuff in the near future. What if I never get to get in the course I wanted to be in and stuck to the course I was placed in? I wouldn't become happy with my life. I may be happy and all-smiley on the outside, but deep inside, I am frustrated, hurt, and any emotion that is the opposite of happy. You see. I am trying to make the most of my life here and now, you give me this. You tell me that it's fine. I can do it, but what if I can't? What if this whole thing is the reason why I can't get a good job in the future? If you wanted majority of us to pass the entrance exams, why won't you treat all of us like intensive students. I bet everything would be fine like that. Or open the slots for intensive class! I bet the list would be full by the time you check on it again. Being in the regular class instead of the intensive class makes me feel like I'm not good enough. It feels like they just said, "You fucked up, kid. You didn't make the cut." in front of my fucking face. Do you know how painful that is? Do you know how long I've struggled to get that thought out of my head for years? I lost hope in getting in one time and nearly cried myself to sleep because I thought I was a worthless person that isn't good enough for you. I hope you remove this system. This might be a big change for you, but I think this is for the better.